abuse meta, "positive" effects
Reminder that people who mistreated you get no credit for any skills or positive traits you developed in response to mistreatment; that was your own resilience and ingenuity in response to a bad situation, not something they did for you. The line that bullying and abuse build character or make you a better or more capable person remains a giant, harmful lie.
vague, venting, negative
God fucking damnit, I'm spiraling
it's ok and a part of being human and part of life
Don't get me wrong, having this space has enabled me to take care of myself. I never would have dropped these thirty pounds otherwise
And, I mean, I guess the next problem I want to solve is my relationship with my parents and the rest of my family
Playing ori and the blind forest demo
Feeling deep pain and sadness
He treated me like shit. But I was his caretaker. These feelings are complicated. In a way, I felt like I raised him.
Ultimately I wish him happiness in life, and I hope he finds what he's looking for. Sucks that I can't be there to help anymore
It was also the first time I was on the roads, instead of a trail. I got some practice with my hand signals--lots left to learn