Amras @Amras@meow.social

NP: Taylor Swift - You Need to Calm Down

https://music.apple.com/us/album/you-need-to-calm-down/1468058165?i=1468058704

Everything hurts.

Happiest of happy birthdays to my coywolf, South, today!! May it be filled with joy as fun as he deserves. Only the best for the yotey fluff. 🎂🎂🎂

Find love. Fight for it, tooth and claw.

#NomadComplex’s #werewolf jock is not only very comfortable, but it looks great, too! Hehe

Also, made a series of silly #StatementGraphics from a recent #fursuit #photoshoot with a friend. The suit is me! *wags* Photos by SouthpawCoywolf over on the BirdSite.

Spent five hours in the chair yesterday with my good friend and tattoo artist, Pink, working on my sleeve.

Trajan, my Greater Swiss Mountain Dog, is a whiney, whimpery, mopey mess after spending a week with his new friend Nuka and coming home to an empty house. :\ He's so bored.

Welp!

It did not go as well as I would have hoped for in the Perfect World scenario, but it wasn’t a complete scorched-Earth disaster, either. So, ultimately, I’m glad I did it. Glad that I was open, honest, and communicative. But I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t ache a little afterwards, because I do. I genuinely, sincerely do. It’s okay, it’ll pass, and I still have my friend, which is what matters to me most of all.

I think I’m giving up on trying to find love for a while, though…

I am struggling with telling a someone for whom I have romantic feelings about said feelings. There are a plethora of variables in play, which, if I’ve misread any of them, spell disaster for our friendship if I come clean. However, on the other paw, if I’ve read things correctly, it could be great. And the trouble is that I’m so scared and worried about losing our friendship, I don’t know if the risk is worth the possibility of reward.

No guarantees.
No warranties.

Love is a dangerous game.

Here we are, in the close proximity and it’s so… unnatural for some reason. I don’t know what’s happening.

I am not accustomed to allowing myself to be vulnerable. The few times I have done this in my adult life have all turned out badly.

There is an investment that is so much more intense going into this action than I can describe with words. I just hope it pans out.